I woke up this morning at 5am, to the worst sound in the world...your alarm clock.

"Shit...." I'm already thinking about the end of the work day, getting home and just jumping into bed and going to sleep. Not a good way to start your day, especially if it's your first day of work! Your one month vacation just ended and your already complaining about having to work.....can't believe it. One month flies by when you have nothing to do.

A hard day of physical labour under the brutal hot sun, which is weird cause we haven't had a nice hot day in like a month. The heat made me week, the short sleep i had because of my bronchitis didn't make things any better. I felt as if i couldn't keep up at all with my new crew. By the end of the day i could barely lift my arms, but after twelve hours of concrete work, i got to go home...

Blogging is not one of my favorite things to do, i love to read them and hear what people have on their hearts, i just can't write them very well. So bare with me, there is a good message at the end of this.

...back to our story (blog)

I get home and I say my hello's and the usual double double routine you get in after going to one place for years. You just see the same people you've known forever and there is no fire, no excitement, just your normal everyday routine.

I jump on the dishes and start washing them, every dish i think about who made the mess and why didn't they clean it up; even when it's my own. Why am i having all these frustrations and small little pokes in my side? Why am i letting things get to me?

I go to my room and just sit down on my computer and start thinking of everything I am going through, and not only that, what so many of my friends are going through. People are just having a tough time trying to pick where to go to next, where as some people are just having a tough time getting people to stay. Have i ever been down the coming and going path. better believe that. finally feel like it's coming to an end, but you never know..

People are just confused and frustrated because of the uncertainties of their future. I think about that so much, where is this job going to take me? What is God's call in my life? What is the next step in my life or is there another one?

Heartbreak is another one of the numerous problems that i've seen in the majority of my friends and myself. Deaths, breakups, shut downs, friendships breaking....the list goes on.

People just getting down on themselves for no reason.

I could talk for hours about the negative things that i've been hearing and seeing this last little while, it's easy to...
but i'm not..

After a good three way talk between the dream team from room to room i went for a drive, got some new tunes the other day on my ipod from turdis and thought i would listen to them. Got some Timmy Ho's and listened to some Living with Lions. Started an awesome journey of thought around Regina... ok. now we are getting into the good part, so if you have read and understood what was going on...good for you (by the way- i can get down on myself for crappy blogging all i want cause i know i'm not an awesome writer like dirtynico)...proceeding...

I didn't have to get up this morning and make the decision that this was going to be a crappy day because i'm sick and had a bad sleep and had to go to work. My job was sweet, lots of hard work, and i got along with the new crew so well, on my first day. I could of just cleaned the dishes and been cool with just being a member of the dream team and contributing my part to keep the house half descent, but i chose to take the negative side.

So much in life, my life, your life, your friend's friend's life we choose to take the negative side. It's so easy to just forget about life and get caught up in routine and not even think about the awesome things happening around you. I don't want to end up letting my work take over my life, or my friends to have school or work take over theirs. I do want to hear about the bad because I care, but mostly i want to hear about the good. Mostly i want to speak the good. But it's all a choice.

I'm stoked because tonight i made a decision to make this year the most kick ass year in the world. I didn't need to have anyone around me to influence me or use as a crutch for entertainment, i found contentment in driving in my truck to sweet tunes. I'm going to be living a life jumping off bridges and cliffs. Not living to work, but just working to live. Not to live in the background noise, but be a presence in the room. To remember that life is meant to be lived, not held down. Cause life is awesome, even if you can't see it at the time.
So for people who stuck around to see where my story was ending, i hope your one of the many i was talking about, and i hope that you can make this year the best year ever, even if your here or not, even if your busy with school, or consumed with work....or both to the ambidextrous

There is alot of good in the air, use it.

-stoked

"Ps-this is what the alphabet would look like if q and r were eliminated."
- Mitch Hedberg